____tear my heart open; i sew myself shut

Sunday, October 31, 2004

im in a good mood. la la la la la. i went shopping. la la la la la. had alot of fun. la la la la la.
ahahas!! weEeeEe~ damn happie today!!! xD i went shopping like maddd!!! went esprit had 30% - 70% sale. shuanngg. den went body shop. sale as well. den went to Fox women. shop and sale as well!! wEeEeEe- shop till i drop! yeah man! im so so so in a good darn mood!
todays youth sunday was niceeee. hahas. i love todays worship songs! and for the first time i payed attention to the song LORD reign in me. so niceee. oh and shawn/sean(?) can play so darn well!!! xD rudolf plays de electric guitar real nice too!! yay. ahha. like our youth worship team. hahas.
later we played some funny games. de pass de msg game. just that we had to have our mouths full of biscuits!! -.- so embarresing. hahas. den later we palyed something called the queen, king and i. had 2 play zee kou pa(?) hahahas. and chocolate was our money. if u lose. u give 1 choc. u go bankrupt u go to jail. den de queen had a right to say sumthing and change parts of it. so if she sae all those shorter den me go to jail! den we have to go to jail. lols. thats wad the QUEEN steph did. hahaha. i was liek im taller im taller! but i wasnt. so i dun care. hahas. (( wadever la cheryyl ))
de games had some meaning behind. something like we're to engrossed in the world we are today instead of concentrating on God. yupps. interesting ba. hahas. hmmm.. guess there's nothing much to say now. yupps. soooo toodles cherrios. take care peopel. enjoy your hols. SOBS! ): 5 more weeks to go for me!!!

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6:02 pm

oh man! i love my niece; jamie! she's soOooOoO darn CUTE!! x) had prayer meeting and we're singing sum songs. and she was singing old macdonald had a farm eee ai eee ai ohhh~ HAHAS! so cute. haahs. aniwaee...

happie halloween! (^o^)

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12:32 pm

Saturday, October 30, 2004

i went out i went out i went out i went out i went out!!!!
xD weeee~ wen to plaza sing wib twinniex jt jansen and hanwei. hahas. went to watch shark tales! hahahs! it was so so so hilarious!! x) especially lenny! oh goshh~ i love lenny!!! he's de vegetarian shark. lols! ahhhh~ de sight was so hilarious.
quotes:
"look at him! he's a shark!"
-looks at lenny
*lenny sittin on a chair swinging on it lookin spastically childish*

HAHAS! oh gosh. i cant stand it. manns. was quite a nice show. yupps. den we went archade. played daytona. hahas. gawd. den played that whacking game?! my hand hurted like shit. hahas. den jt left and mi + twinniex went shopping. went to cine to buy famous amos. yummie. so nice. hahas. went to heeren next. window shopping. hahas. she went home. i went back to plaza sing. walked around myself. hahas. saw quite nice stuff. went to bloomington. rocks!! saw some stuff. cards boxes or sumthing like that. saw this nice quote. true friends are with you in spirit. heex. went home after a while. was raining like hell! eeks. luckie i didnt get wet. lols. going out for prayer meeting soon. yupps. yay. tmr is sundae! yay. church!! x) hahas. yeahhh. oh oh. saw some stupid fotos jt had in his cam!! it's so sick! wedgies and blahhh. gaggs- hahas. but it was hilarious. hahas. oh well. its their last day of school. cant help it i guess. urks- hahas. okae gotta go now. toodles cherrious!! =)

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6:07 pm

Friday, October 29, 2004

bahh. i really really need to get out! bish* hope i can go out tmr mans!!! weEeeheEe~ go out tmrrr~! lalalala~ hahaha. had training today. hated it! xP did training exceptionally fast today! warm up 10min fast. drills also fast. striding also fast! omgg. think it was insane?! -.- den training. frequency. standing jumps 15secs continuous did 77 in total. horse jumps koas. jump of de box. i freaked out. hahas! den carry 7.5kg in each hand and jump up from full squat 10times. den swiss knife 20 and back extention 15x wib 5kg weight. yay! training log is in my blog. hahas! hmms. was supposed to do 7sets! end up we did 4. jana de new girl did 3 de guys did 5. wahhas! den went home wib gail and janice. hahas. nothing much happened today actually. bahhh. oh wells. tmr im going out. YAY! weeeee~ wach movieee. lala. hahaha. okae i guess i have nothing much to say now? dunno ler. i full of emotion.(( not that i'm gonna cry )) just many mixed feelings inside. sigh- oh well. toodles! x)

{ tear my heart open }
10:34 pm

You wanna know more, more, more about me
I'm the girl who's kickin' the coke machine
I'm the one that's honkin' at you cause I left late again

Hey, Hey, Hey
Can't you see i want you
By the way i push you away
Yeah, don't judge me tomorrow by the way i'm actin' today
Mix the words up with the actions
Do it all for your reaction, yeah
Hey, hey, get tangled up in me

You wanna know more, more, more, about me
Gotta know reverse psychology
I'm the reason why you can't get to sleep
I'm the girl you never get just quite what you see

Hey, Hey, Hey
Can't you see i want you
By the way i push you away
Yeah, don't judge me tomorrow by the way i'm actin' today
Mix the words up with the actions
Do it all for your reaction, yeah
Hey, hey, get tangled up in me

You think that you know me
(Tangled up in)
You think that i'm only
(Tangled up in me)
When everything i do is only to get tangled up in you

You wanna know more, more, more, about me
I'm the girl that's sweepin' you off your feet

Hey, Hey, Hey
Can't you see i want you
By the way i push you away
Yeah, don't judge me tomorrow by the way i'm actin' today
Mix the words up with the actions
Do it all for your reaction, yeah
Hey, hey, get tangled up in me

{ tear my heart open }
10:38 am

o m g. i think my cousin is like retarded LA! gawd. just talkin to her on msn is like WADDA HELL! -.- she asks me retarded questions... _-_ like.. is that kristein dunst on my dp? if not then whie did i put that picture up? is it cause she's an actress? den later she finds it weird. oh gawdds~ sorrie to say it but i find it quite how do you say it.. *BISHH* oh well. guess i gotta live with it. gahh~ hmm last nite chatted wib miss TOOT [lucindaa xiao jie]! xP im SOOT she's TOOT! weEee! hahahs. (( -miss toot- remember you owe me de 25cent ice cream from macs on sunday!! xD )) cause i helped you choose your subjects! xD hahahas. was kinda retarded last night. made alot of new names xD hahahas. now me + jansen are homobanana siblings! oh goshh. think i'm insane. he owe me ROYCE chocolates IF i buy him del monte bananas? wadda hell is that i also dunno. HAHS! i cant belief it. teeheee~ i feel evil. muahhaha!! haiii. its the last day of the weekdays! nooo~ cries- sighh. there goes my hols. bahhh. I SO NEED TO GET OUT!!!!! x i just died. anybody interested in going out tmr wib meeee!??! bahh. -falls back on bed- hahas. superrr boreddd. lahh. where's everyone?! oh its the LAST DAY OF SCHOOL for them. sheesh* people remember your hugs goodbyes and everythings! it'll be de most memorial day of the year. sigghhh. and there i go having 5 MORE WEEKS of school. &^$@&$@*^ unfair! hruhh~ okae guess enough bloggin for now. toodles! x)

{ tear my heart open }
10:09 am

Thursday, October 28, 2004

If you have the will, you will succeed.

{ tear my heart open }
9:59 pm

ahhhh~ finally blogger works. ^^ couldn't blog at all yesterday! stupid blogger! hruhh- hahas.
well~ came back from camp yesterday afternoon. bahhh* was soooo tired out!

did de funny rope course thingy! hahas. oh man. de feelin up there and de feeling down below was so darn different! so nice. den sarah kept snappin pictures of me. pengsss~ oh de food there was quite nice! just that they were like blardie stingy wib de food lah! sheesh* oh wells. and lam was being an idiot throughout the whole camp! so wadeva. at night my group was just sitting around de canteen. hahas we were palyin some funnie games! lols. den i suddenyl fell of the bench! so malu! hahahs. den we all laugh like mad. lols. oh! de place we slept in de nite was in a tree hut! de floor was so hard!!! woke up like 172687661865` times in de night cause it was so uncomfortable! bahh.

next day. we did sum belaying thing. hahas. den we did rock climbing. man that was nice!! x) lam competed wib jovina and nelson. and he lost to both of them! HAH! -big laugh- lols. was damn funnie. everyoen managed to get to de top. hahas was quite easy. yupps. den we went to pack our stuff for our trip to pulau ubin. went there. den we had to make this raft wib sum pipes and that water thingy lah. ohgosh. my group failed. HAHAS! we couln't float! when lam got up. BOOM* de raft sank. HAHAS! was darn funnie. later we did a JETTY JUMP! oh gosh! that was damn fun! i made de biggest splash! oops- i landed on my butt instead of my legs in first. that was an OUCH* =x and i got 2 cuts. haahs. so well done! hahas. went to clear of for dinner. we ate... rice bake beans porriage bake beans porriage bake beans.... you get the drift. later we had a night walk. that was nice but scary. cause there was totally no light?! yeahhh. but the moon was so nice! full moon. and it was so bright. first time i managed to appreciate nature :) den we camped in tents and slept. yupps.

woke up wib a strain neck. _-_ i slpet on my tummy wib my head twisted. haahs! cleared our stuff. kept de tents and wadsoever. den we packed for our hike in pulau ubin. gosh. we hiked from camp 2 to de 'shopping centre' back to camp 1. was so damn hot!! think we hiked like 10km. hahahas. we hiked like so damn fast. hahas. den it was time to go back to sparkC! yippeee~ hahas. ate lunch. den packed our stuff. man. they made us wait so blardie long b4 they let us off. got a ride back from lam. gosh~ he is so darn bloody rich lahh. him mum carries a prada bag. hahas. mi + nicole were like just uhhh~ okaeeeee~ hahas. and his bro! OMG! SO TALL! i almost died when i saw his height. lols. yeahhh. den came home. yupps. de end!

hahas. the camp was okae i guess. yupps. bahhh. so now its back to training. hols are almost over!! arghh~ hahas. guess i better go now. gotta dry my shoes. _-_ sheesh* k toodles! :)

{ tear my heart open }
11:10 am

The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in
want.
He makes me lie down in green pasture,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for
his name's sake.
Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of
death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

-Psalm 23-

{ tear my heart open }
10:41 am

Sunday, October 24, 2004

GOD / can turn the [[WORST]] into the [[BEST]]

todays message was so NICE! rv. peter poon is another great speaker mans! x) so rawks. he was talkin bout how God can change the worst of things into the best of things. yeah. at first he was giving some examples which i thought was leadin to no where. but after a while he explained. found out what he was tryin to mean.

he gave up each one coffee bean. told us to smell it and stuff. de smell was so darn nice. den he told us this was one of the most expensive coffee in de world. it costs US$300 per pound![ freaking ex!!!] den he told us de story of it. the coffee was from java there. and there's this cat that would eat the best coffee berries. but de bean in de berries aren't digestable. soooo~ out if comes WITH the poo. den people go round findin de poo of the berries and DIG OUT THE SEED from de poo. [urks right!?] and its one of the best coffee in de world. mans. hahas. den he gave more examples. like when a blind man asked jesus to heal him. jesus spat. mixed his spit witht he soil and rubbed it on de mans eyes adn told him to go to de river to wash it off. den de man could see. hahas. but his message can real clear. think it's one of de most wonderful messages to me! yupps. i think its really useful.

to everyone out there feelin anxious frustrated sad or whatsoever. remember this. GOD can turn the worst into de best! :)

yupps. retarded blur toot lulu!! xD hahas. we.angie. lulu were walkin outta de chael. den lul was running after steffi and marylin(?) tryin 2 show angie who she was tryin to tell she was nto talkin about[chim??] but me and angie were talkin bout nina! den she so blur. thinking bout another nina. den she suddenyl ran and went. THAT ONE THAT ONE!! -point point- den me and angie were. THAT ONE THAT ONE?! -looks confused- den we started chasing lulu. hahas!! oh man it was soo so so hillarious!! lulu maluated herself! bahwahwa!! xD den chatted a while and so on.

went out for lunch wib mi fam. ate de toa payoh chicken rice. hahas. i still love that place! (: den went to j8. ohhh mann! it CHANGED SO MUCH! but still not as fantastic at orchard. hahas. but there are some nice shops!! xD must go shoppin. must must MUST! especially if there is a sale. wahahs! den did grocery shopping. gonna haf steamboat later. yay! okaee. i guess there's nothin else to sae bah. bahhhh~ camp tmr! sobs- some one kill me! ): aniwaes. toodles! :)

Love unfailing
Overtaking my heart
You take me in
Finding peace again
Fear is lost in all you are

And I would give the world
To tell your story
Cause I know that you've called me
I know that you've called me
I've lost myself for good

Within your promise
And I won't hide it
won't hide it

Chorus:
Jesus I believe in you
And I would go
To the ends of the earth

To the ends of the earth
For you alone are the Son of God
And all the world will see
That you are God
That you are God

{ tear my heart open }
4:36 pm

Saturday, October 23, 2004

i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu i love lulu

i luff yooo twinniex!! *mwahhs muackss smoochies smacks kisses* hehes. YEEHAHH UNDERWEAR UNDERWEARRR!!! christmas is coming!! wEeEeEeEe~~ jingles to youu!! happie christmasss! (:

{ tear my heart open }
11:53 pm

-I WONT BE LEFT BEHIND-

I run my fastest
But still get beat.
I land on my head
When I should be on my feet.
I try to move forward,
But I am stuck in rewind.
Who do I keep at it?
I won't be left behind.

The harder I am thrown,
The higher i bounce.
I give it my all,
And that's all that counts.
In first place,
Myself, I seldom find.
So I push myself the limit-
I won't be left behind.

Some people tell me you can't,
Some say don't.
Some simply give up.
I reply, I won't.

The power is here,
locked away in my mind.
My perseverance is my excellence,
I won't be left behind.

Make the best of each moment,
The future is soon the past.
The more I tell myself this,
The less I come in last.
Throughout my competitions,
I've learn what winning is about.
A plain and clear lesson-
Giving up is the easy way out.

So every night behind i go to bed,
I hope in a small way I have shined.
Tomorrow is a brand-new day,
And I won't be left behind.

{ tear my heart open }
9:09 pm

okae. now time to blog! :) hahas. hmmm. nothing much happened actually. hmmms. woke up like 10mins b4 piano elsson started?! o.O oooops` heex. den lik made mr ong wait for 10mins?! oops. hahas. yeahh. den later watched tv. was watchin liu xin hua yuan!! omggg. i laughed SO MUCH! im in a mood for laughter today!!! x) jerry yan cant act for nuts! [pukes] hahhahas. so hillarious! keke~ den went online. chat chat chat. so bored la. went blog hopping. havent done that for a long time! hahas. been having many thoughts on life? hahas. i dunno. the thought just popped out to me. yupps. was chatting wib rachaee;mumsie. hahas. live you life the way you want it cause its all up to you :) hahas. yupps. hmmms. chatted wib sammie; daddie and sammie kwann! hahas. man!

kwannie! u stupid POK! x) made me go HIGH! lols. bahhh.

sammie; daddie- so sad! u still gotta leave! sobs- oh wells. at least u stillc an come back to run yaaa??

ahahs. okae guess there's nothing much to say. so yup toodles! :)

{ tear my heart open }
8:55 pm

-fly. hillary duff//

In a moment, everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulder
For a minute, all the world can wait
Let go of your yesterday

Can you hear it calling
Can you feel it in your soul
Can you trust this longing
And take control

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
Cause it's your time
Time to fly

All your worries, leave them somewhere else
Find a dream you can follow
Reach for something when there's nothing left
And the world's feeling hollow

Can you hear it calling
Can you feel it in your soul
Can you trust this longing
And take control

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try Cause it's your time
Time to fly

And when you're down and feel alone
Just wanna run away
Trust yourself and don't give up
You know you're better than anyone else

In a moment, everything can change
Feel the wind on your shoulders
For a minute, all the world can wait
Let go of yesterdays

Fly
Open up the part of you that wants to hide away
You can shine
Forget about the reasons why you can't in life
And start to try
Cause it's your time
Time to fly

In a moment, everything can change

{ tear my heart open }
4:41 pm

Friday, October 22, 2004

the sluggard craves and gets nothing, but the desires of the diligent are fully satisfied.

-proverds 13:4

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11:25 pm

in a moment;

everything can change-

*im tired.

back home! and its the holidays!!! ((WEEEEE)) but monday - wednesday we have STUPID sparkC camp! ugghhh. and thursdae + friday we have training from 4-6. WHAT KINDA HOL IS THAT?! sighhhh* its like no holiday at all LAHHS! hahas. oh wells. today im so so freaking tired. my legs are not working at all! goodness. i was super slacker today. hahas. mans. i couldnt move. while doin my 150m i was runnign practically half the speed i usually run. sucks. guess cause i didn't have enough sleep. slpt onli 5hours. hahas. was readin angels and demons. mans! the story is so so so gruesome!! goshhh~ den i couldnt sleep. toshed and turned for 2hrs. den i finally fell asleep. bleahh. today didnt have much lessons. hahas. oh i joined playing pool for P.E.P hahas! i suck at pool man! but richards worse! HAHAS! jk richard. he was so darn funnie. hahahas. cant explain it. but hahas! all of us laughed SO MUCH! crapps- x) oh oh. i shook the presidents hand on tuesday!!! x) so honoured!! hahas. -wadeva cheryl- hahas. bleah. oh yeah! gotta go. toodles cherrios! :)

VALERIE! get well soon! takkaire girl! i miss you loads!!!!!

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10:39 pm

Sunday, October 17, 2004

okaeex. a quick post for today! hmms. had church today. i'll admit im super blur today!! i couldnt absord a single thing that we were discussing about. oops =X yikes- hahas. oh wells. den later we voted for the shirts. but they might change cause of de design. yupps. most of us choose black actually. was quite nice. hahas. yeah. went to heeren for lunch. ate sakae sushi. lols. but was nice! yummms. den shopped. heex. today i really shopped till i dropped! omgg. my feet were aching soo soo bad. hahas. yeahh. onli came back at 6?! late mans. nothing much happen today actually. so yupps. toodles cherrios!!

p.s-

sammie- heyys! dont worry tooo much alrights!! just pray hard! God will lead the way! dont stress out!! keep smiling!! :)

twinnie- i love you girl!!! :) takkaire alrights!! dont get down!! :)

{ tear my heart open }
7:13 pm

Saturday, October 16, 2004

/ US ; three :)

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11:05 pm

US \ the three princesses

-you are awesome in this place

okaee. im finally blogging! :) ahahas. hmms. woke up this morning. den had piano lesson. yupps. den in de middle of piano lessons these ppl came to repare de house line. so noisy! lols. sandra was barking so much!! couldnt shut her up on bit! lols. yeahh. den finish lesson. went to the condo with dad mei and jie to swim. lols. swim a few laps. den we ended up tanning. but too bad. the sunw ent out in 30mins. _-_ sucky. hahas. yeahhhs. bathed. changed. den read my book. davin ci code. so cool man. im stuck on it. i love dan brown!!! x) heex. i din have lunch today. wahaha. came home. slacked on the comp. den ate dinner. there was like SO MUCH FOOD! so much for dieting! //grumbles// oh wells. tmr i shall diet!!! _-_ cant stand it. so depressing. hahas. oh well. hmmm gonan go for a walk in the park later. haha. "work off the fat" bish. kk im talkin bout dieting de whole way! goodness. i shall shuddup bout it now. hmmm. us 3 [me sophie and val] are gonna make a blog! :) weeeee~ hahas. val found such a ncie foto! its so so US! hahas. okaee. guess theres nothing much to talk about. duhh~ its boring today. so is every other saturday. think i gotta look for new hairbands again. cant believe i broke it. grrrs. hahas. okae shalls top here. toodles! :)

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8:28 pm

Friday, October 15, 2004

no more. no more.

oh mans. life like sucks?? bahhhhh. i seriously want new legs! my legs sucks! :( sometimes i just wonder whie they hell i choose track?! whie did i enter sss?!sumtimes i amaze myself at my thinking in the past. hahas. oh wells. thats me. slapps- man this month is so so so going to be torture for me and gail! sighhhs. weight lost starts now. ughhhs. i hate that! we BOTH have to lose about 8kg?! its like HELLO?! oh goshhh. sooo we have to wear our track suits during warm up,calistenics and drills! for BOTH morning and afternoon. sigh. its so so so depressing you know?! u lose. den u gain. know how much that SUCKS?! bish* oh well. now i am gonna TRY to lose it. 8kg?! im so dying! ugh ugh ugh. no more junk food. lesser rice. more meat. oh well. at least theres meat. hahas. yeahh. hmm what else is there to say. bahh. i guess nothin much. one more week and school closes for a week and its back to school again. bleahhh. hmm. maybe in dec we get to go overseas again! 1 last flight for free! :( hahas. no more free flights. gonan miss them. so fun. wee~ yeahh. guess there nothin much to say. yupps. so toodles cherrios! :)

banana;

hey hey! you takkaire alright!! dont give up!

just chill! you'll do it!! huggs-

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8:02 pm

Wednesday, October 13, 2004

buggers. i cant do anithing on the school comp! ): sobs- sighhh. its like so damn boring. got 2 periods which is eqiuvalent to 1.5hrs FREE! bish* oh well. i cant tag i cant go friendster. i cant go hotmail. bahhhh- nothin much to say. i did badly for math test! ): i have 7 marks gone cause i was careless! bleah.. k i guess i gotta go.

sammie + twinniex; dunno if i can make it on sat;. :( shall see how ba!

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1:50 pm

Sunday, October 10, 2004

\ lackluster insipidity.

bleah. i feel so bland! so

.... lols. yeah. oh well. i guess life

cant be exciting everday huh.

guess i gotta learn how to live with it

and stick with it. bleah. everyone's having

exams now. good luck to you all for ur EOY kaes?!

jiayoous for ur remainding papers! :)

GOd will lead you through your papers! yupps.

pray hard people! smiles! yeahh!

hahas. retarded me las. hmm. wut else.

today once AGAIN. im up earlie for church!

and i was RIGHT ON TIME! for worship!!

clapps- hees. hmm today eetou lead

worship. he's darn good! i think without him

i wouldn't have realised how GOD can be so near

but i had pushed him far away :)

today he used de theme chicken, eggs and bird flu _-_

lols! damn retarded! but it made sense in a way. yupps! :)

he even used chicken run. hahas. talkin bout

something on acitivity and progress.

den we started talkin about de progress of

our SOC Youth Ministry. 2 years down de road

what do we want it to be. den we set

our visions! :) so cool. hahas. even drew

an image of a new YM. that activity was

darn fun. :) hahas. den later chatted wib miss lulu.

-sticks out tongue

hmm. went suntec later.

did shopping! but i din buy anithing!

went mango kaes! so darn nice!! got 1 shirt

so blardie nice! last one and dun haf my size! ):

sobs- sighh. nbm den. haha. den hang around. went china town

den come home. gotta go back to school soon.

sighhhh~~ im so so dreading it.

oh well. im gonna become a nerd from now! :)

study study study.

and when i stop piano lessons(an if)

im gonna devote my sats to running! :D

hmm. oh yeah. welcome to my life is a

COOL SONG! x)

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6:40 pm

Saturday, October 09, 2004

the POWER to BeLieve
the WILL to dO
the WORK to sucCeed

{ tear my heart open }
8:31 pm

-2 monkeys

a dog*

and a horse :)

here i am blogging once more. hahahas.

last night had so much darn fun please. xD

went out for supper with

alvina meii. pris jiee. junhao [bro in law maybe]

went all de way to clementi just to eat roti prata! xD

and it was GOOD yummy prata!! drools-

there was. mushroom + cheese. banana + cheese. and matabub(?)

rocks la aniway. den we were makin so much noise i think

hahaha. so paiseh! suddenly we were talkin bout

meii and junhao born in de year of de monkey.

den we make fun of each other! lols

laugh until stomach hurts!!! alvi was de chipanze. den junhao gorrila!

den i made a gorrila face. they all started laughing. mkae me laugh MORE!

lols. den junhao sae what your pris jie. dog got what. de i said.

dog just shit there den let people pat pat head.

lols. was so darn high last night! lols.

made so much jokes. hahahahs!

mans. had lots of fun. came back at 12.31am

rocked please. xD today cant u believe i did gardening!?

hahas. today gonna be sis bday dinner. k i guess i got nothing much to say.

so yupps. toodles! xD

{ tear my heart open }
4:01 pm

Friday, October 08, 2004

when the music fades;

*and the rain starts to fall

i'll be you angel-

shining from above.

darn it. im so freaking pissed with my legs??!!

whats wrong with them man?!

whie give me so many darn problems!
WHIE?!

sucks. i hate them.

can someone donate their good legs to me?

please??

oh wells- i guess life's like that. full of obstacles in our way to our goals

sighh* nbm. i'm gonna get through it. i will survive!!! clapps-

hahahas. hmmms. today had morning training

did dynamics. was quite tired. but all of a sudden i felt like chasing gail

so i chased gail during striding. lols. felt so high after that! xD

thats me. haha. and YOU gotta live with that! spastic!! craps.

aniwae i missed home. missed my fam. missed my dogs.

miss everything. just wanted to get away from school

darn school. for de FIRST time in de entire term.

i actually listened in chinese lesson!! -applause-

proud of me? hahas. bet your are!! hahas. yupps.

hmmmms. next week gonan die. blahh. training for next year gonna start.

my poor legs. think im gettin shin splint! horrible.

den next week got tingxie. chinese test AND math test.

hope i dont fail! shall pray hard.

oh oh. today is sophie ngin gollifer BURFDAY!

happie birthday to you

happie burfday to SOPHIE!

happie birthday to yoouu! :)

love you girl! happie 15! hahas. oh. and guess what.

I WRECKED MY DARN PHONE!

sobs* i cant msg or call or do anithing. stupif phone.

hahahas. sighhh.

today had parent teacher meeting

for sec2's and track.

was darn boring la can??

was falling asleep.

wahahahs... bleahhhs.

okae im so bored. till iw as actually writing a poem??

hahahahas. not really lar. just bored.

bleah. oh i cant believe it!

DAVID IS OUT OF SINGAPOREW IDOL!

nooooo.

cries.

WHIE?!

stupid singapore.

bish*

LAST BUT NOT LEAST!!!

i miss twinniex and daddiex!!!

huggs-

hahas. mi + twinniex were like sayign something like

"lets do something with his hair!!"

lols! and he doesnt want to.

wakakkas~ we have to do it.

in DECEMBER. one dae we gotta go out

i miss you dearries! muackers!! hahas.

{ tear my heart open }
9:51 pm

Thursday, October 07, 2004

life is just getting harder;

bahhh.. so bored~ doing a quick blogging now. hees- supposed to be having art right now. :) some piano thingy. hahas. quite funnie las. hmmms. oh ya. when i came to school people call me LITTLE GIRL!! _-_ i cant believe it. bleahss. this week was well.. i dunno how to put it. good bad? full of mistery? conflicts? yeahhh. lots of it. had a huge fight on monday? yeahhh* i think so. tried to solve that stupid thing about our groups. so whatever. was so stupid. we were shouting and crying and whatever la. cant stand it aniwae. so now i guess its over le. i cant wait for tmr!! =) i get to go home! oh we went to sunai buloh(?) dunno how to spell. hahas. -cheesy grin- ohhhhhh~ and we had SOME FUN! ^^ ((winks)) hell yeahhhh` *H&H* keke~ darnit fun. xD wakakas~ took some foto's yeah?? lots of chessy excuses too.. wahahahs! just cant get over it. ohhh we saw a boar too!! and lots and lots of stuff. hahas. continuing from just now. having pep now. hees~ supposed to be doing my eng work. bleah. so lazy larhs. grins :) hmmms. training was gym work. omg i just died! de weights was like killer to me! gawdds* ahhahas. sighhh~ i so miss home.. for de IT music did dunno wad mix de music together with the video. hahas. quite farnie las. k i guess i gotta go ler bahhs. buizz~

{ tear my heart open }
1:42 pm

Saturday, October 02, 2004

i cut my hair! ahhh~~ i feel weird with it! oh manns~ lols. pris jie said i look punk. hahahas. i've got a fringe and a small tail! bish* when de guy was cutting my hair, i was like WHATS HE DOING?! and he goes snip snip snip. got so freaked out by de way he cut my hair. hahas. i think i look weird now. how am i going to school tmr! *covers face* bleah. heck it. hahas. after that went to heeren to buy hairband again. lols. cuz i broke 2 of mine. bought de same one again. lols. den went to taka. went to look for stuff. din find anithing. hahas. yupps. jun hao(( sis bf )) was damn funnie. told him to wait at adidas. he walked all de way to royal sporting house! how blur can he get. hahas. den he dress like going for tennis. lols. funnie. oh oh and did you know de spiderman thingy at cine leisure.. de left butt is bigger den de right butt! xD hillarious! *laugh my ass off* -shrugs. hahha. weirdo me. yeahh. oh oh. we saw this fat woman omg. shes SO FAT! junhao cld see her ass. so he asked jie to stand in front of him. hahahas! she was wearing this pink skirt. u know de type that flares. and its SO DAMN SHORT! its onli up to her ass. and her shirt we cld see her tummy sticking out! was so gross okae! and she went up de same amount of floors as us so we had to see her ass a million times. hahas! poor junhao. unpleasent sights. lols. sighh~ i regret not going to watch dodgeball with them! den i dun hafta pay for my ticket ^^ hahahs. man. i so wish i can stay home forever. its like where i have so much fun. sighh~ but i wun study at home. hahas. bleah. oh wells. cant be helped.

i hear something about a proposal and a new mummie!! winks-

you; all i can say is

you're really sweet

and thanks for everything

thats all.

{ tear my heart open }
7:08 pm

Friday, October 01, 2004

Happiness is made of rainbows;

Dreams come from the stars above.

*Smiles are made of sunshine

And hearts are made for love-

omg! who the hell voted for JERRY ONG?! he sucks! so so much! i can't believe jessea is out! wth is singapore thinking man! goodness~ *slapps* oh wells. sighh. had a damn blardie bad week. was having bad moods. guess i'm like pms-ing aey? couldn't focus one bit! bleahs. shouted at people. didn't listen in class. sucked. now we have to choose our sub combi! and i dunno what to choose! bleah. headache mans! hahas. sighh.

whats going on? i just dont get it. the silence isn't
going to help. so would someone just say something?

christian fellowsip in school this week was kinda nice las. hahas. watched The Interview With God. liked it alot. hahaha. had alot of meaning to me ba. really shows that God is here with me. God helped me regain myself. he helped me clear my mind. hahas. don't know whie but the "story" about the sheep and shepherd. somehow it just touched me? hahas. dunno las. yupps. God is so great! yay~ :) guess i gotta get going ler! yupps. toodles.

Ran after faded fantasies

Wished on many fallin' stars

{ tear my heart open }
9:13 pm